This week has, in my opinion, been far more torturous than all the previous weeks in this IVF cycle combined. The week after the retrieval was kind of aggravating, but I knew the wait was worth it so that we could transfer the embryos that were the "best of the best." The week after transfer was annoying as I analyzed every little twist and turn I made with my body, wondering "Did I just lift something too heavy or make a turn that could harm a possible baby, or (fill in the blank)?"
This week, however is just plain torturous. Knowing that I'm pregnant, but not experiencing any symptoms has been absolutely driving me insane. Every time I feel the slightest bit of wetness in my underwear, I'm rushing to the bathroom to make sure it's not blood. Every time my bbs stop hurting for part of the day, I convince myself that I'm no longer pregnant (like I'm doing right now). To be perfectly honest, I had been feeling more symptoms (maybe they were all psychosomatic?) early on than I do now. I swore I was having indigestion, bloatiness, crampiness, sore bbs & mild nausea, but honestly I'm feeling fine. No fatigue. No morning sickness. No ANYTHING...
What will I do tomorrow if we get to the u/s and there's NOTHING there? THIS is what infertility has done to me...
Teri I did the SAME thing with both my kids. I was neurotic about going to the bathroom to check on things. I also had zero symptoms. Never once had morning sickness...nothing. I did/do have lower progestrone than most people which is why I lacked any symptoms. I took supplements for the first 12 weeks and that was it. If you are really concerned you could ask them to check your progestrone...just a random thought that might bring you some peace. Hang in there! I will be praying for you tomorrow...what time is your apt??
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate too - especially about going to the bathroom - I swear I was checking every 10 minutes. Trust God for tomorrow and remember that He is there with you. We'll be praying!
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